Monday, November 30, 2015

Day of the Moon

Yessss...it's Moon day again...my favorite day. I'm hoping it will become yours too. 

I'm hoping you will appreciate a day reserved for all sorts of lunar endeavors and stop thinking of it as the worst day of the week because it's the farthest from Friday.

If the mass media can develop the idea of Cyber Monday, then we of the moon can certainly conceive of the many embracing Moon day. 

 This particular Moon day finds our Lady Moon in the disseminating phase in the sign of Leo. This phase of the Moon means something is
being given, spread around, distributed. Because it's in the sign of Leo gifts of confidence, autonomy, leadership, courage, and being comfortable in your own skin are available for the taking. That is if you have taken the time to cultivate these qualities. Is this bounty currently ripe in your inner garden and ready for pickin'? If so, you will find these gifts simply fall off the branch and into your outstretched hands. Open and receive.

If not, if you're inner garden has been neglected, then at least these attributes are up for investigation. Ask your self if you would appreciate more confidence, more freedom to be you, more opportunities to have your brilliant ideas be heard and the courage, above all, to pursue and express them. Look into classes or books that provide opportunities to practice these qualities in small doses at first. Even though Lion energy is big energy, and you need to be willing to not only take it in but also to let it loose out in the world, because we're talking lunar here there's a softer, more gently penetrating quality to it. Sip it in.

And if you're not into investigating, then dream them. Dream of yourself today as already being confident and free to express yourself creatively and boldly in whatever way makes the most of who you really are. Does the image of the Lion or Lioness appeal to you? Daydream a little.

Is there a shadow side? You betcha. Superiority, narcissism, shallowness, arrogance, looking for 'love' in all the wrong places, self-hate. If these are what's growing in your inner garden, then you've got a little weeding to do. Just take it easy, spare your back, and plant what you want as you weed. Ask Lady Moon to light the way to a more wholesome you. Just be willing.

But here's the best part, because we're talking about the Moon, these qualities are softened and best integrated through intention, reflection, and faith. This means if you're not a Lion type, you still get avail yourself of the best of Leo through the gifts of this disseminating Moon. It may astonish you when you least expect it - a sudden burst of confidence; the lightbulb flashing with a new idea; being honored for your contributions at home, work or play; or feeling happy for no reason at all. Await the unexpected.



Bless this day, bless the Moon, bless our shape-shifting, softly radiant lunar nature! 

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Old Woman Solstice

(This is a true story…I do not dream nor fable…)


Deep in the most ancient of forests, during the frosty Yule Moon, a stone cottage with white edged ivy curling around the windows and surrounded by a hedge of holly, was home to Old Woman Solstice. On this longest winter night she sat rocking patiently by her fire of oak and apple wood. The tall figure of a visitor, young and proud, stood facing her.

“You live a dangerous life alone, Madam,” said the Undertaker. “If you die, who will know to put you on a barge and take you to the river so you can float away in peace? Who will know what you taught, and what to do with all your herbs and potions?”

“Do not worry, Undertaker,” Old Woman Solstice replied. “I am well accompanied by my Heather Besom, my familiars Owl and Wolf, and my Spells. It’s all I need when Old Man Death comes for me. The herbs and potions will return to the Earth from whence they came and wait for someone else to rediscover them.”

She continued pensively, “And don’t forget, I have completed my Book of Shadows.”

“Ah, yes, and where is it hidden?” the Undertaker rubbed his long thin hands, dark veins pulsing with anticipation.

“Why would I divulge that information to you?” Old Woman Solstice  replied.

“Because, when your time comes, I need to know what Shadows will receive you, my dear.”

Old Woman Solstice rocked long, lost in thought. Outside the sound of leafless branches scratched against the windows of her stone cottage and snagged the new tender tendrils of ivy towards their naked wood as if to clothe themselves. The fire crackled and the chimney sipped the apple scented smoky wisps.

Startling the Undertaker with a sharp snap of her fingers and a whisper of words he did not understand, her Book of Shadows suddenly materialized. 

“This is all it takes for me to summon my Book, Undertaker. When my time comes it will be here waiting for you.”

The Undertaker looked longingly at the Book. It’s cover was black with gold lettering and decorated with the starry constellations of winter. The Book of Shadows held the key to the Old Woman’s soul. With the Book in his possession he could decree the time and place of her death. He wanted to banish Old Woman Solstice and her power over the Cycles of Earth and Sun, so that the end of all life would be solely at his command. 

Old Woman Solstice placed the Book on her lap and gently smoothed it’s cover as if to comfort and reassure it. The wrinkles on her hands resembled the patterns on it’s surface. She regarded the Undertaker tentatively, and knowing should she die without an successor the disaster that would befall the world where the Undertaker to take control, struck a bargain.

“By tomorrow night, find the River where I will rest in the greatest peace, procure a vial of the water, and the Book will be yours.”

The Undertaker agreed, knowing that just within a 1/2 day’s ride the most peaceable river ran along the southern edge of the forest. He took off his hat and with feigned courtesy bowed to the Old Woman. 

“Agreed. Until the morrow’s eve then.” He left by the back door and stole stealthily through the forest, his beak of a nose resembling an enormous black crow leading the way.

Old Woman Solstice did not sleep that night. She rocked and rocked and whispered lengthy incantations well past the late dawn of winter and into the middle of the day. 

The Undertaker arrived at the River as the Sun reached it’s zenith, penetrating the water to it’s very depth. Such a brilliant Light in winter the Undertaker had never seen. It’s rays gleamed as sharp as the golden blades of the warriors of old. The beams of Light struck the water with a hissing sound making the surface of the river bubble. 
The Undertaker furrowed his dark brow when he saw the river’s normally placid waters start to blister with heat. He reached for his pocket and brought out a vial. But as he went to dip it into the water, the River boiled and steamed with more fervor, so that even tongues of fire leapt crimson and amber from it’s surface. 

The Undertaker growled but the River continued to roil and churn, and with a sudden lurch, spit mounds of fish, cooked through and through, on to it’s shores. One particularly massive fish knocked out the Undertaker so that he fell dead at the foot of the gnarled trunk of a twisting Evergreen. A thundering shower of pine cones pounded down on the grimly crumpled body of the Undertaker thouroughly preventing any Light from entering. The many fish that sacrificed their lives that day decomposed and became a rich layer of fertilizer from whose scent the Undertaker recoiled. His soul had no way to go but through the deepest roots and buried layers of rocks and relics to find a dwelling place. 

Old Woman Solstice got up slowly and with much effort from her rocker. The pain in her bones cut deep to the marrow. She had kept the Cycle of Life safe for another year. But she was not long for this world. Old Man Death would soon come knocking and succeed where the Undertaker had failed. She needed to find another to take her place, secluded from the world, yet forever upholding it’s natural order.









Saturday, November 28, 2015

The Book of Breathings



The Book of Breathings were instructions that Isis left for us to know how She managed to breathe life back into Osiris after Set, his brother, had hacked his body to pieces and scattered them throughout the land. 

Ancient Egyptians did not have a concept for Soul as separate from the body. This is why they had their particular burial practices. It has been suggested that the concept of Ba cannot and should not be translated because it is exclusively old Egyptian. Suffice it to say the Ba is the person, their unique power in the world, and it continues beyond this life with the body into the next.

To our modern minds, it may not make sense. But I cannot deny that to my psyche the ancient writings breath a life into me that is like a dream…

Last night I dreamt I was in Egypt. 

Inside a tall dwelling of stone blocks, (similar to a pyramid) I have to climb through a opening as narrow as a well via a wall that is a book shelf full of books. When I get to the top I must leap across to an opening that leads to a room. Once there I have a 360 degree view of the surrounding country side. 

I then see a small sarcophagus that holds an amulet representing my Ba (similar to soul, see below). The amulet is in a separate drawer and it’s for my eyes only and it is in good condition. In another sarcophagus is the Ba of the previous ruler. His amulet has deteriorated which means his rule is done.

I walk out into the crowds of people who are not sure if they will accept me. But when they see me they see the light of my Ba and all is well.

The dream is part of my Book of Breathings. Every night we have this amazing opportunity to see what the Divine is writing for us. This dream gives me instructions on how to live with disappointment, or betrayal where parts of life are ruptured. After a long dangerous climb to the top (dealing with the aftermath of feelings), I can get a wide perspective. It tells me my Ba is well and it’s safe for me to move on and forward. I move towards something new, as compared with moving away from something to avoid dealing with or escaping what’s unpleasant or unhappy. 

Paying attention to my dreams sustains the breath of life with forgiveness, grace, and love. 

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Fluffy bunnies dwell here

fluffy bunnies dwell here
 their happy carrots in miniature nests underground,
 along with cat-eyed goblins conjuring a cauldron stew,
  and mystical wolves penetrating light with howling wind.
  
in the majestic antlers of the moose,
   magpies perch joyfully bidding the past fall -
    to the ground!, they scry, with queenly vigor -
     and then splash across the sky in milky way grandeur.

acorn caps upon their tails,
 squirrels scurry to hide the gifts of oak,
  while sprinting by are fox and bear leaves, 
   and the goldenrod cradles sleeping roly-polies.

in this forest 
 there’s room for all.

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Walking between tear drops


Decision time .  

The group had grown too, too confining . It felt to her like they were going around and around and around in circles . Their words floated out of their pursed lips like smoke rings . Unimaginative halos of niceties . When things started to get more sharply intimate and real, hazy psychological walls of words would come up . smoke . wisps .  

A little psychology is not a good thing . It made one think they know something . superiority . pedigree . control . Made them experts at hiding behind psycho babble . made it seem noble . appropriate .

Boundaries misused keep other’s at arms length . withhold comfort from the lonely . distance . 

Like avoid triangulation . To her it sounded like strangulation, which is exactly how she was feeling . crushed . squashed . Holding back what she really wanted to express .  

These things she noticed and kept quiet . colluding . compliant .

She had to make a choice .  Forfeit familiarity for the unknown . imitation friendships foster disenchantment . it made her wild with sorrow . sad . solemn . 

It dismayed her to realize she was not complacent . That instead she wanted to speak words of truth that would strike like lightning . That she wanted swords to clash . Blades of words to cut through the fluffy folly of their rules of conduct . etiquette . protocol . 

Let's cut the crap . Live instead on feral dreams and untamed stars where the savage night is on fire ! 

Not here . Not with this group . 

All this fire inside me, she thought . I didn’t think I knew fire . But here it is . hot . blazing .
The fire wasn’t the problem though . She needed the fire for the conflagration of words . forge . combust . She needed her single flame to burn her way through the cooped up feeling . circles . circles .

She’d faced the trial by fire . jumped through rings of smoke . 

Now she needed to walk between tear drops . rain . 


Monday, November 23, 2015

It's Moonday again


My favorite day is Moonday because it's named for the Moon.

For me it's a day to take stock of the week behind and the week ahead. Not in the way of organizing and planning, but by the light of the Moon. I study my dreams for the week past, the night ones as well as the day ones, to guide me in the coming week. The night time ones tell me things I need to know about myself in ways that don't always make sense to my rational mind. Sometimes they highlight hopes, sometimes fears. But always dreams offer something to learn from. Taking time to play with dreams is giving yourself the gift of Lunar perception and intuition. It's a way of getting to know the dark, starlit sky of your own inner wonder and mystery.

I opt for a Jungian perspective on dreams. That means when I look at my dreams my first interpretation is to see everyone in the dream as me. When I share that viewpoint with others, their first reaction is: Huh??? I understand. What if someone dreams of murder? Or some other horrendous thing? I explain that dreams are not to be taken literally. Dreams are symbolic. 

So if you dream you kill someone, I ask what in your life needs to die? Or what do you want to get rid off? Or what's killing you? Symbolism takes the pressure off seeing the dream as literal, and usually, most people have an answer right off the bat. 

It's also important to notice how you feel in dreams. Feelings give the best clues to what's going on in the unconscious. If you take the time to pay attention to your dreams you will learn that dreams are completely honest and guileless. If you are hiding anything from yourself, the dream will disclose that to you by way of feelings. The dream will reveal what your heart needs you to pay attention to. A dream is your closest friend and ally.

Daydreams reveal what you most want to happen in your life. Simple daydreams are easier to decipher. Like daydreaming of a new car. Or a scrumptious Thanksgiving meal. Other daydreams are more like journeys that unfold without conscious direction. Listening to music without lyrics or to tracks with repetitive drumming while relaxing with your eyes closed is a really good way to invoke daydream journeys. If you are the kind of person that doesn't remember night dreams, daydreaming is a great alternative to entering the symbolic world of your psyche. 

Moonday is also an opportunity to notice the 'waking dream'. 'Waking dream' refers to synchronicity or things that happen to appear magical in some way. Maybe you find an unusual feather. Or a friend who you've been thinking about calls. Or things happen in 3's. 

The waking dream is also looking at the events, experiences, and feelings of life as if it is all a dream. As if it all has symbolic meaning. 

For instance, this past week was unusual because of the minor remodeling and maintenance work going on in my home. I can look at it all as if I dreamt it to find how it mirrors symbolically speaking what's going on in my psyche. I can tell you that there's definitely some restructuring going on within me. There's some things that I've been wanting to shift and reprioritize. Some passions I've wanted to rekindle and some feelings I've been ignoring that I need to acknowledge. These are things my Soul requires. 

The work on the atrium, which is in the heart of my home, symbolizes work my heart wants - more beauty and authenticity in friendships. The river rock we added to one wall exemplifies the love and connection I have to rivers - their contained flow and sweet water, but also their power to flood and completely change the terrain. The hard work my husband did to aerate the root-bound soil and replenish it with fresh peat and hummus guides me to look at where energy has been stuck in my life, and what needs a refreshing so new life can grow. This all has deep meaning for me and helps guide how I will consider making decisions in the week or weeks to come. 

The phase of the Moon is also helpful in giving symbolic meaning. Tonight we have a Gibbous Moon. This means the Moon is more than half but less than full. From a Moon Phase perspective, this phase signifies a time for us to look at our dreams optimistically and with confidence. The astrological sign also sheds meaning, and tonight the Moon is in the sign of Taurus. Briefly, Taurus is an earth sign and has much to do with creating Beauty in our daily lives. If nothing else, meditating for a few minutes on what a Gibbous Taurus Moon might mean for you and your life is enough to set a soft, dreamlike intention for the rest of your week. When we work with the Moon in this way we work, not only on our own individual Soul, but with the collective psyche as well.

We can all enrich and deepen our lives with a more Lunar frame of reference. Consider can we bring a little more beauty and optimism to this week? What can we cultivate in our lives that will revitalize our heart's passion and longing? 

Carpe Noctem, dear friends. Seize your inner Night. 

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Shaman's Haiku


Dusty mountain path
Surprise, a baby goat baaah’s
Hawk circles in blue

Along granite cliffs
 In awe, hawk circles again
hunting grey rabbits

I am the goat’s baaaah
I am the hawk and rabbit
I am the mountain.